Posts tagged chapter 10
Posts tagged chapter 10
How could this be happening? Are my eyes seeing this correctly. I’ve never been so caught off guard walking into my own house. I couldn’t think. I just ran out of my house, got on my bike, and rode my bike to my older sisters house. It was a ten minute drive, so it would probably be a thirty minute bike ride, but I didn’t care. The only thing that I was going to do was borrow a suitcase filled with clothes, because the only plan I had involved buying a plane ticket.
“It’s gotta be youuuuuuu” Harry was singing his high note in the music box. We were all taking turns singing our solos for our new song Gotta Be You that would be out at the end of the month. I wasn’t really paying attention to what was going on with Christina. She hadn’t been on Skype in days, and there was no other way I could get ahold of her. I knew something was wrong, but that’s when I heard it.
“No! Let me through! I’m Niall’s girlfriend! I’m not lying!” I turned around to see Christina pushing through security. I was curious to know how she managed to get this far. Our security guys were pretty big, and she was tiny! I was just about to yell let her go, but someone beat me to the punch.
“It’s okay we know her.” Harry said walking up to Christina and the security guard. The security let her go, and Harry pulled her in for a hug. Wasn’t I her boyfriend? I walked over, and pulled her in my arms, then kissed her so passionately not caring that Harry was right next to us. Not caring that the rest of the boys and our producers were watching us. It had been so long since she has been in my arms. I missed her warm vanilla scent. I finally pulled away from our kiss, and looked at her. She looked so beautiful, she was wearing a dark red peacoat with jeans, and thigh high boots. Her hair was curled, and she had a beanie on. She looked so pretty in winter clothes.
“Babe, what are you doing here? If you told me you were coming I would have told security.” I said laughing. She let out one of her cute smiles and then she started turning red. Almost the color of her peacoat. I missed that.
“It was a spur of the moment kind of thing. I didn’t know I was coming here until well… I was coming here. If that even makes any sense.” She looked sad. She was smiling, but her smile didn’t reach her eyes. I knew something was up.
“Are you going to tell me what’s wrong? Or do I have to start guessing?” I pulled her chin up so she was staring at me, and not the ground. Tears started welding up in her eyes. I pressed my forehead to hers, while I put my hands on her waist.
“You know you can tell me anything. No matter what it is I am here for you.” I whispered in her ear. Everyone was still staring at us, and I wanted to hit them all. Couldn’t they give us some space? I turned to look at everyone, and their eyes were glued to us as I suspected.
“Hey could you guys give us some privacy maybe?” As soon as the words left my mouth everyone shuffled around realizing that they were staring at us. Within seconds they were all moved back into the actual studio room. Harry gave me a look before he walked away, but I could tell that he was just concerned.
“Now that we are alone… What’s going on?” This was the third time I had spoken and she was still silent. I was about to give hope on her even saying a word when finally…
“I um. I walked in on my mother. She was kissing some guy!” She managed to get out through sobs.
“How could she do that? My dad just died like two years ago! How could she do this to him!” She nearly shouted the last part. I just pulled her in tighter because I didn’t know what to say.
“I don’t know what I was thinking. I just bought a plane ticket and flew over here. I don’t ever want to go back over there Niall. I don’t want to see her.” That’s when the sobs really started to come out.
I moved her so she was looking me in the eyes. ” You don’t ever have to go back if you don’t want to okay. You can stay here with me. I love you okay?” She wiped all the tears off of her face, and then began kissing me. It was a different kind of kiss. It was like she was thanking me with her lips. She finally pulled away, and looked at me.
“Thank you Niall. You’re my knight in shining armor.” Well that felt nice. I was a knight.
It had been two weeks since I had seen or spoken to my mom. She knew the reason I left so I didn’t have to explain anything. The last thing I said to her was that I was flying to London, and then I hung the phone up. It’s hard being away from my mom and not talking to her, but I’m still so angry with her. I was staying with Niall in his flat. It was nice though, it felt like we were married or something. I liked it. Only one problem. Even though Niall and I have been dating for almost 7 months now, we still hadn’t had sex. I knew Niall wanted to because every night when we would be laying in bed he would try kissing my neck, or rubbing his hands down my back and pulling me closer to him. I had too much on my mind though. I was finally beginning to feel like myself again these days though. More care free, and even though Niall was in the studio most days working on the album, almost every night when he got home he would pick me up in his arms and kiss me. I would usually cook something for him(he loved that I could cook) and we would just have romantic dinners followed by watching a scary movie.
“Hey love, wake up I’m home.” Niall whispered in my ear. I had fallen asleep on the couch, and then I realized I had forgotten to make dinner. My eyes shot open.
“I’m so sorry I forgot to start dinner. Give me twenty minutes and I’ll make something!” I said jumping off the couch, but Niall caught me by my waist.
“Don’t worry about it. You cook every night anyways. Let’s just to take out. Chinese sound good? They deliver.” He said with a grin. I assumed he wanted Chinese because he was tired of the food I cooked. All I really made was lots and lots of different pastas, and different meat to go with it. I’m Italian what can I say?
“Tired of my food already?” I said winking at him.
“How could I ever get tired of your food? Especially the fact that you make so much. You truly understand my love for food unlike anyone else.” He planted a kiss on my lips. Well I thought it was just a quick kiss until he pulled me in again right after, and started kissing me more passionately. We were in the kitchen now so he swiftly picked me up, and placed me on the kitchen counter. I was becoming out of breath so I pulled away, but he just moved his lips to my neck and started trailing kisses down. Once he saw how it was turning me on he pulled his lips back to mine. I started to get into it. I began running my hands through his hair, and he was gripping my waist and pulling me closer and closer to him so that now my legs were wrapped around him. As soon as his hands started making their way up my shirt I pulled away.
“We should order the Chinese food. They take a long time to deliver probably…” I said hopping off of the counter. I could feel Niall’s eyes on my back. I knew he wanted me so desperately at that moment. It’s not like I didn’t want him too it’s just… I had no experience. Obviously I’m a virgin, and Niall knew that. Niall is a guy though, and he HAS had sex before so I knew he wanted to with me more than ever. Niall loved me though, and I knew when we finally did have sex that he would be careful with me. I knew he would take things slow, and make sure to not hurt me. One thing was for sure though, I wasn’t going to lose my virginity to Niall in this frumpy t shirt and leggings. Looks like I’ll have to make a trip to go get some lingerie tomorrow. That sounded terrifying!
-The next day-
“What about this one? It’s very very sexy.” Eleanor said to me holding up a revealing black lacey bra and matching thong.
“It’s completely see through!” I yelled with the most scared face. Eleanor could tell how nervous I was, and put down the lingerie.
I had called her this morning after Niall left to go to the studio. Luckily, she had the day off from school. Out of the rest of the girlfriends Ell and I had grown quite close. Mostly, because we were the two girlfriends that were around all the time.
Eleanor came and sat down next to me. “It’s just lingerie, why are you freaking out. Spicing up your sex life with Niall is a good thing. I usually go buy and new lingerie every week. It’s nothing to be embarrassed about.”
“You don’t understand, I’m not trying to spice up our sex life. I’m trying to have one with him!” I put my hands over my face. She pulled them away and looked at me.
“You mean you guys still haven’t? You’ve been together for like… 7 months!”
“I know, I know. I’ve just been nervous, and its my first time. I want it to be memorable, not a wreck.” I’ve never been more embarrassed. I looked away from Eleanor. I felt like a pathetic virgin.
“Alright, I know what you need.” Eleanor said grabbing my hand and pulling me out of the store.
“Where are we going?” I said confused.
“To a different lingerie store. We aren’t going to find anything for you from that place. I know the perfect store. It’s all French lingerie, and the stuff is sexy but still classy and cute I promise.”
Thank goodness for this girl. Sure enough two hours later I was buying the perfect lingerie outfit from the store Eleanor took me to. Everything was perfect. As we were walking out of the store I wrapped Eleanor into a big hug.
“I don’t know what I would do without you Ell. You saved my life!”
“Oh yeah yeah your welcome. Just go have sex with the boy already! Niall is probably dying!” She said laughing. I returned a laugh. Someone else might have taken her joke the wrong way, but it didn’t bother. I think because I knew I was finally ready.
“Oh one more thing should I like get candles or rose petals. Would it make it more romantic?” She gave me the funniest look.
“Oh gosh don’t you dare pull all that girly romantic shit. You standing there in heels with that sexy little number on will be enough. Guys don’t care about that kind of stuff.”
“Well alright.” Was all I responded.
We were at the studio like every other day finishing up our Album. We were all joking around, and usually Niall was the loudest one laughing, but he was dead quiet. I nudged Lou.
"What’s up with Niall?"
"Oh that poor mate. He still isn’t getting any action from Christina. Last night she turned him down again!"
"Well she is a Virgin right? It’s different for girls."
"You turning into a chick Hazza?"
"Shut up, Lou." I got up to go to the bathroom hoping to get away from everyone, and talking about Christina and Niall. The past two weeks her and I had actually hung out a lot. During the days we spent at the studio she would bring smoothies or food over for all of us, and then if she went to go get us something else i would tag along. Niall didn’t seem to mind, and she enjoyed my company.
*ring ring* My ringtone was going off. Christina was calling me?
"Hey Harry! I uh. I need a favor.."
"Sure, anything. What do you need?"
"Well i kinda need you to stall Niall. Can you make sure he stays an extra 20 or 30 minutes at the studio? I have a surprise for him."
"Yeah okay. What kind of surprise is it? Cooking him a buffet? He’ll love you for that!" I said laughing. I was pretty sure what she would be surprising him with would not be food. A huge lump formed in my throat.
"Not really a food thing. It’s kind of private, but whatever. Just promise me you’ll stall him? PLEASEEEEE."
How could i say no to her?
"Alright alright. I’ll do it, but you owe me!"
"Yes, whatever you want Hazza. I gotta go though, so i’ll talk to you tomorrow." The line went dead.
I wanted to puke. The thought of her and Niall together like that. For the past couple months that i’ve known her i had this fantasy where maybe i could be her first, but i guess that would never happen. But she does owe me now…
"No don’t leave yet! I need you for uh… uh.. i clogged the toilet in the bathroom. It’s embarrassing! Help me unclog it?" Harry was giving me excuse after excuse. The rest of the boys left the studio 20 minutes ago, and Harry was still bugging me. I was not in the mood.
"You can unclog your own shit Harry! I want to go home. I’m starving, and i could really go for one of Christina’s pastas right now, so outta my way." I said pushing past him. What was with him?
"Wait, Niall I.. Erm-" I was tackled to the floor.
"What-are-you-doing-Harry?" I said in between movements. Harry was pinning me to the ground in a wrestling move.
"We never wrestle anymore. I was just in the mood for a little match." I jumped up knocking Harry off me. He looked guilty.
"Well, then let’s tomorrow. I just really want to get home. If you missed me all you had to do was say so." I said grinning. Harry and i hadn’t been as close lately. I don’t know what it was, but there was something between us.
Harry pulled out his phone.
"Look at the time! I have to go. I told Lou i’d bring something home for dinner. Later Niall." He almost ran out the door of the studio. This kid had to be on drugs or something.
-20 minutes later-
I parked the car, and began walking up the stairs to my flat. I hadn’t talked to Christina all day. I felt bad that i was giving her the cold should it was just i really thought something was going to happen last night. When she pulled away AGAIN i just got disappointed. I wouldn’t be one of those guys that tried to rush a girl into something she wasn’t ready for.
Especially Christina. I loved her. When she was ready she would tell me, and i would make love to her and show her how much i really cared about her.
I walked through the door, and i didn’t smell any food that was being cooked. Maybe i should have stopped to get something. I hope she wasn’t mad at me for being such a prick.
"I’m in the bedroom! Could you come here?" I walked up the stairs slugishly. Days like these were when i realized how many stairs there were in the flat.
I opened the bedroom door to find the lights were dimmed and Christina was lying on the bed in lingerie waiting for me. My eyes practically buldged out of my head.
"What’s going on?" I asked.
Christina got up, and began to walk towards me. Her hair was in tight curls that ran all the way down to her waist, and she was wearing a baby pink corsetted bra. It had pearls and white lace all over it, and stopped right above her belly button. She had matching fluffy panties to go with it. Finishing it off with a pair of white high heels that she knew were my favorite on her. I had never been so turned on in my life.
She closed the space between us and pressed her lips to mine. I was still so stunned that i had to really focus on kissing her back. She started to pull me on to the bed. As i lye down she sat on top of me, and kissed me on the cheek.
"I’m ready." Was all she said, then she began pressing her lips to my neck, and as ready as i knew she was i promised myself that i would be so gentle and careful with her, because i wanted her first time to be as perfect as she imagined it would be.
*Not sure if i should continue this scene or skip to the morning after. I’m not really a ‘sexual’ writer so i don’t know. Let me know what you guys think!